I just found out a friend is pregnant with twins, and rather than feel happy for her, I cried for myself. I can’t summon up happy-feelings for her because all I feel is salt in an open wound. It’s been 14 days since the confirmed loss of mine, and tomorrow I’m calling to take care of the co-pay of the next round of meds. I’m so angry and upset and sad and wish I could feel happy.
Am I rotten? January 6, 2009